its been a while, I know

Haven't came by these parts in a while so give let me say I miss y'all. I've been running around trying to get ready for this baby, a wedding and (yes) I'm planning my own shower.(Crazy right?) I'm gonna have help from my bff and my sis-in-law but I am a total control freak so I feel like i need to be the one choosing everything so I can be 100% happy.

Right now I'm 26 wks and 1day to be exact...about 14 weeks left. just can't believe how fast its happening! What i can say is that I like being pregnant so far, i haven't had any major issues::thank God:: I feel so sexy, and even more womanly it's a feeling that's hard to explain.

My hun has been all ova me lately...its pretty weird!

As far as baby...i had an appt on tue. and he/she is good! We still can't confirm whether its a boy or girl. this lil munchkin will not stay still long enough and is laying on an angle thats hard to see. But everything else is fine s/he's healthy and growing well. I can feel him more often and his kicks are getting stronger each day. This past sat. babe felt him for the first time...it was so sweet! This whole time he's been trying but to no avail, but we woke up sat am and was just laying around talking and he had his arm around my waist/ or whats left of it/ and he felt him move! it was so hard that i quickly asked 'did ya feel that'. his face light up so bright i wish i had it on video. Enough bout that I can go on for hours about this pregnancy, I even wanna start another blog dedicated to mommy-hood!

just don't think I'm gonna have the time for 2 blogs but we'll see....

::Now::Time for a quick hair update.

I'm almost 10 MTHS into my transition. Whoa! I'm speechless! When I started this journey I only dreamt of transtioning for a year and never thought i would make it that long. It has truly been a mental shift of thinking to get here...i had a couple moments where i wanted to give up and just relaxer again but prayer and determination got me through.

I recently took down 2-strand twists with marley hair that i had for about 4 weeks.

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- 1 cup distilled water

- few drops of garnier cond.

- bit of olive oil, coconut oil and jojoba oil

I sprayed liberally @ night and tied with a scarf

next day re-do pony and add a headband..voila!

My hair is still thriving but I'm having major shedding which i expect this far along. Most of the relaxer strands are strong but some break off during manipulation which is why it's better to leave it alone. I am now wearing a new wig i bought, with my hair in about 10 corn rows. At night I oil my scalp and spray mix before tying with a scarf. Voila! the rest of the year I'm going to concentrate on low manipulation styles and scalp massages so i can gain mucho length before my BC...wish me luck!

I'm leaving with a pic taken today....

*smooches*

Loving Life

At this point in my life I couldn't be any happier with where I am. I haven't been employed since last Feb but I feel like I'm more aware of myself and who I really am. This transition has helped me to look at myself and see who I really am. I thank god each day for giving me the strength to make this choice and to follow my heart.
I have learned to "DO ME" no matter what anyone else thinks about my decision. I decided to go natural again, this time taking the time to appreciate my hair and everything that goes with it. Unknowingly I started a journey to a healthier lifestyle... without the worries of sweating out my perm I began working out more, with ingredients reading I started becoming more aware of what I eat and drink. It seems that each step I took lead me to another revelation about myself and how important it is to lead a more natural life. About 4 months into my transition I found out I was pregnant! That's when the light really began to shine bright... I HAVE to do things differently now, for the sake of my child. Either way I would have to stop relaxing my hair so having a head start is a plus I know many people who continue to relax throughout pregnancy but I am not one of them. I don't believe its safe!

Today more than ever I love my life. I'm out of work and pregnant but not stressing a thing...I believe God has always provided for me and he will continue to do so. When things are at its worst is when we need to have faith in Him. I didn't 'plan' it this way but this is what I was dealt so this is my path... My fiance and I had to cancel our dream wedding. The crazy part is all along I just wanted it to be simple, because after all its not the wedding that matters its the commitment to each other. The idea of a Big wedding wasn't for me or him but everyone else.
I am not disappointed, I am not sad, I am thankful to have him in my life as a friend and support system and we're starting a family what more can I ask for...after 10 years together this is truly a blessing. Alot of people ask why we waited so long to get married and to have kids... if I had the chance I wouldn't change a thing.

*smooches*

i'm loving it...

This weather is gawgous...finally sun is emerging and flowers are blooming, i even have a bird's nest in my AC. Every morning i hear the lil ones chirping until mommy gets back with breakfast..its TOO cute! i love IT!

Yesterday we had our first cookout of the season which was such fun! I was the honorary Grillmaster since i couldn't really do anything else...and i think i found my calling LOL... I rarely ever get on the grill but i was up for a challenge. Everyone was raving about the BBQ chicken and Burgers....they were hand made! my secret was to mix bbq sauce into the patty before grilling Yummolicious!

it was good to see all our firends and family out of hibernation!
i feel so full of energy and really sexy lately! yesterday i rocked a grey low cut dress with ruffles on the neckline and down the belly with a cropped jean jacket and flat rhinestone embellished sandals! HAUTE if i may say so myself! by late evening i had to throw on some tights cuz the quitos were out and about!! Well enuff bout me what did you do this weekend?

Today is my 'rest' day I'll cook then watch movies all day! i am so glad i did all the cleaning last night cause i don't think it would've gotten done today.... so until next time!

*smooches*

Spring has sprung

I am so feeling this beautiful spring weather...today I spent a good part of my day outside, running errands and visiting my favorite place THE FRUIT STAND! i can't get enough!
Ever since my pregnancy I have changed my eating habits... so much so that I started losing weight. Every time i visit my OB i lose either 6 or 4 pounds. At first i was worried but i know the reason is because I've been eating more grilled chicken, fish, fruits and veggies than before. plus the baby is doing just fine, and so far all my tests have been good!
i haven't had many cravings which is great but i try to treat myself on Saturday's! All in all I am patiently waiting for my 20 week ultrasound so I can start the nursery...Honestly I have no preference on the sex, I just want a healthy, happy child! I'm not really showing yet so it doesn't seem real LoL! but when i feel the tiny kicks I know life is growing inside of me..its such an amazing feeling I can't even put words to it. I have always loved kids, helped raised many of my younger cousins and have friends with babies, but never have i thought of myself as a mom...i know many women have dreams of marriage, kids and the dog but i never envisioned that life for me. i am blessed to have a guy in my life who as excited as i am and ready to be a dad. He has always been great which is why I've been with him for so long... but now i see a side of him that i didn't know was there before, he's so caring, and supportive it makes me cry almost everyday! He thinks I'm losing it but everything brings a tear to my eyes.. talk about hormonal! lmao!

*smooches*

To Tell The Truth

: clearing my throat:

I have been holding in a secret for waaaaay to long and need to get it off my chest! My absence from blogland hasn't been because of sheer laziness nor lack of interest...

I AM PREGNANT Y'ALL.........There i said it!

My world has been rocked since Jan 20th inaugauration day, that is when I took 2 tests to confirm what my heart already told me, and I couldn't be any happier... I am well into my second trimester so I feel 'safe' to share the news now, I hope I haven't lost some blogger friends due to my lack of posts but If only you knew how bad morning sickness really is. So now that i'm feeling better, getting my energy back and actually wearing something other than pj's or sweats...i'm feeling Golden, like my old self again!

Needless to say my wedding planning has come to a halt and now it's all about baby planning! =)

It's funny how my wedding day was to be Sept 23rd and my due date is Sept 22nd!

Isn't God great?!? its like he's saying "so you think you in control huh, I think not"

I feel truly blessed and every day I wake up with a smile on my face!

As far as my hair, it's still in braids and still growing! I haven't been on top of my moisturizing game but I try to at least put in some leave-in or condish every few days. so there My secret is out and i feel a 1000 times better now... to all the moms out there if you have any tips or advice I'm open to any knowledge you may want to share with me!

*smooches*

Hair Update

Thought you might wanna know what's going on on top of my dome! Well I got braids a couple weeks ago and it looks like this is the look I'm going for this summer. Low maintance and CuTe! i did them my self and am proud to say i finished in about 10 hours! YAY ME! but lemme tell you my shoulders and arms were dead the next day! /Hey Beauty is Pain RIGht?/ anyways it's been 7 months since my last relaxer : ) and so far I must say It hasn't been so bad... I am going for the long haul, I won't put a time stamp on when I plan to chop but my hair will let me know when enough is enough..right now i'm enjoying my new texture but can't let go of the length just yet. Lord forgive me if that is vain.... I've always kept my hair short but am terrified cause I never had short and curly. For now I'm gonna keep doing what i'm doing! until next time!





*smooches*

Life Is What You Make IT....

Haven't been around in a minute so It's good to be back! Since my last post i've been re-inventing my life, just a lil bit. =) Big things to come! I am blessed to have the life I live and each stumble I make forces me to focus on the bigger picture.

Spring is here and it's time to clean out the closets, get rid of extra baggage and re-evaluate my circle of trust. We all have those people in our lives who only come around when things are bad... You know the one i'm talking bout! Well time to leave them behind cause you don't need anyone making a bad situation worse. All that negative energy is NO GOOD! And Grandma always say: Misery Loves Company!


Life has a way of knocking you down.... And that will NEVER change. The fact is you decide how quickly you get up and dust yourself off! Every time is get knocked down I raise my head to the sky and ask god for the strength to keep it moving!

*smooches*